Tony & Ziva | Nobody's Crying | 11x02

PLEASE WATCH IN HD SPOILERS I really can't put into words how I am feeling right now. I have not stopped crying since 5pm today and its nearly 6am. My head hurts for crying and I am just full of so many emotions. I just feel destroyed and heart broken right now and I don't even know how I managed to even do this but I know tomorrow, when I wake up, I am just gonna be even worse. I'll be waking up the reality that shes gone because right now it doesnt even seem real. I am clinging on to dear life that Cote, once she has spent some time away, comes back next season because I can't deal with this just being it. 8 years. Now the end? No, I just can't. And it's not just the Tiva aspect to this that is breaking me, it is the fact that I have lost a role model who has helped me through nearly 4 years of my life, I have not lost Cote, I know but Ziva is a big part of who I am today and even Cote is too. It's just hard to say goodbye to that so quickly you know? I could not have cared less about the cast in this ep, I just wanted the focus on Ziva but we never got that so...what can you do? Anyways, the acting was done to perfection and I swear no one else could make me cry as much as I am than Cote and Michael. Hope you enjoy this (even though it will probably hurt like hell) Please don't ask me the name of the song, it is always the title of the video and also you can google the lyrics :) Thank you for watching Elisha