The Social Life of a Homeschool "Jesus Freak"

This video is about growing up in a homeschool cult and my teenage desire to be social and make friends while also being a "Jesus Freak." I share stories and journal entries about homeschool academies, church, youth group, and the AWANA program. I also answer some questions I got about homeschooling. Thanks so much for watching! A quick note: The home video clip shared from 16:13-16:35 is WAY louder than the rest of the video! So sorry about that! You may want to turn the volume down for that part if you're using headphones. [Resources Mentioned] "Steven Hassan’s BITE Model of Authoritarian Control" by Freedom of Mind Resource Center: https://freedomofmind.com/cult-mind-c... "Lovingly Abused: A true story of overcoming cults, gaslighting, and legal educational neglect" by Heather Grace Heath: https://www.amazon.com/Lovingly-Abuse... Coalition for Responsible Home Education: https://responsiblehomeschooling.org [Timestamps] 00:00 - Growing up in a homeschool cult 03:47 - Gendered social control 06:11 - 7th grade & my "Jesus Freak" journal 09:45 - 8th grade & homeschool academy 13:31 - Anxiety at church & youth group 16:04 - The drama at AWANA 17:48 - Placement test at a private school 19:11 - 11th grade & seeking god's will 24:36 - 12th grade & my 1st social independence 26:23 - Homeschooling Q&A 32:16 - Isolation, loneliness, & disconnection [Background Music] Title: Straightforward https://www.hooksounds.com Image description: Elly is white with brown eyes and straight brown hair. She is wearing a maroon sweater and talking to the camera. To her left is the corner of a desk that holds green plants, candles, and a small bisexual flag. There are a couple of screenshots during the video and one home movie of her AWANA group. #ReligiousTrauma #ChristianPatriarchy #MakeHomeschoolSafe #PurityCulture #Exvangelical #CultSurvivor