My Misery

Static in my lungs, I can’t regulate Every breath I take comes too late I bent my spine just to keep you close Now I’m buried under what you broke I swallowed truth, I sealed my mouth Called it love, called it loyalty Now the pressure’s closing in And it’s killing me slowly I carried the weight like it made me strong But pressure doesn’t care how long Now my chest is caving in And I won’t die like this im suspended in the aftermath Between the damage and the past If I let go, will I sink Or finally learn to breathe I stayed too long in a losing fight Just to prove I could survive the night I carved your blame into my skin And called it trust, called it commitment Now I don’t recognize my face Just an outline out of place I gave you everything I had And it still wasn’t enough I kept the peace, I played my part Let it rot inside my heart Now clarity cuts deeper than pain And I see everything I was suspended in the aftermath Now I’m cutting through the collapse If I let go, I won’t sink I’ll learn to breathe without you in me I carried you Until I broke I suffocated Just to cope No more weight No restraint I won’t choke On your regret I was drowning in the space you left But the pressure taught me how to resist I don’t need your air in my lungs I don’t need your voice in my head I let go And I’m still breathing