I Have Burned Enough | Gothic Orchestral Metal | A Heart That Refuses to Open

I open the shop at seven. I trim the stems at eight. I wear the same white gloves I've worn for years — still fit. still clean. still safe. The orchids need more water. The roses need less sun. I know exactly what each living thing requires and how to give it without giving too much. I have learned the shape of careful. I have memorized the distance. I have built a life that does not ask for more than I can give without consequence. I don't want to feel it. I don't want to reach. I don't want to stand that close again to something I could break. I am very good at living at the edges of the warm. I have burned enough. I have burned enough. I know what I am. Someone laughed today near the window of the shop. I looked up without thinking — I always look up. I stopped. Old habit. Old wound. Same thing. Pre-Coro They say that time is mercy. They say the fire dies down. They say a lot of things from very safe distances. I don't want to feel it. I don't want to reach. I don't want to stand that close again to something I could break. I am very good at living at the edges of the warm. I have burned enough. I have burned enough. I know what I am. She stayed. Even knowing — she stayed. She looked at me the way you look at something worth the risk. And I — I was the risk. I was always the risk. AND SHE SMILED. WHILE THE WORLD WAS ENDING SHE SMILED AT ME — like I had ever been anything other than the thing that took her. Puente — el cierre So no. No. I don't open that door. I don't open any door that leads to someone I could love. I don't want to feel it. I don't want to reach. I don't want to know again what it costs to be me. I am very good at living at the edges of the warm. I have burned enough. I have burned enough. I open the shop at seven. I trim the stems at eight. The gloves still fit. The gloves still fit. #darkfolk #gothicorchestral #gothicmetal #darkfantasy #symphonicmetal #epicmetal #sunoai #music #darkromance #melancholicmusic #orchestralmetal