Pastel Revenant-Self Destruction (audio)

lyrics Wakin’ up alone again in this goddamn bed, Sheets smell like regret and the ghosts of shit I said. No texts, no calls, just the echo in my skull, Friends faded out like I’m a fucking joke to them all. Stare at the ceiling, count the cracks in my soul, Heart’s a black hole suckin’ everything I hold. Pills on the nightstand, bottle half-empty again, Another night drowning in this fuckin’ pain. I just wanna kill myself, end this worthless ride, Carve my name in the dirt and let the worms decide. Fall off a bridge, feel the wind whip my face, Smash on the rocks below, finally leave this fucking place. Self destruction, baby, it’s the only thing I know, Lonely, depressed, and rotting from the inside slow. No one gives a shit, so why the fuck should I? I’m already dead, just waiting for the lights to die. Scrolling through their stories, everybody’s fake as hell, Smiling faces while I’m trapped in my personal hell. Therapist said “breathe,” but I’m choking on the air, Depression got me bent over, fuckin’ me raw and bare. Cut my arms just to watch the red run free, Numb is better than this endless misery. She texts “you okay?”—bitch, I haven’t been since birth, Born to lose, raised to rot on this worthless earth. I just wanna kill myself, end this worthless ride, Carve my name in the dirt and let the worms decide. Fall off a bridge, feel the wind whip my face, Smash on the rocks below, finally leave this fucking place. Self destruction, baby, it’s the only thing I know, Lonely, depressed, and rotting from the inside slow. No one gives a shit, so why the fuck should I? I’m already dead, just waiting for the lights to die. Fuck this empty room, fuck these bleeding veins, Scream into the void but it just laughs at my pain. Nobody’s coming, nobody ever did, I’m my own worst enemy, digging my grave with a lid. One more shot of whiskey, one more line of hate, Pop the whole fucking bottle—seal my fucked-up fate. KILL MYSELF! YEAH, THAT’S THE PLAN TONIGHT! FALL OFF A BRIDGE UNDER SHITTY STREETLIGHT! SELF DESTRUCTION COURSING THROUGH MY VEINS LIKE FIRE, LONELINESS AND DEPRESSION—MY ONLY FUCKING CHOIR. NO SAVIOR, NO HOPE, JUST THE SWEET RELEASE OF BLACK, SEE YOU NEVER, WORLD—I AIN’T COMING BACK.