spike & buffy | she will always hate me

so I'm still obsessed with them so here's another spuffy video ahaha...this is kinda the pov of spike...he always knew/thought he'd never have a chance with her & she'd never love him...at first because he had no soul & then 'cause when he got a soul he didn't believe she could ever forgive him for what he had done...and tbh without s7 & him getting back his soul for her...what he did would've completely destroyed this ship...what he did was horrible & i don't think anyone didn't hate it!!!! it made him realize that in order to ever become what he wanted to be, what she deserved, a better man...he had to get back his soul, I think he truly changed & he did come as for as it was possible as a vampire without a soul...but to truly be a better man it was necessary to get back his soul and he realized that & did everything possible to achieve that...so that as he said "buffy can get what she deserves" ...and then the entire s7 he tried to make up for it...and he didn't do that to be with her...and I think that showed the difference between soul-less spike & spike with a soul...he never wanted to let her go and wanted to be with her in s6 & when he had a soul, he just wanted her to be happy and tried to help her & do whatever she needed...and buffy saw that, she saw that he really did change & believed he could be a better man, that he was a better man...and I truly believe she did mean it when she told him, she loved him in the end but spike still couldn't believe she could ever see more in him than a monster even with a soul because of the things he did without one...and it's kinda heartbreaking when you think about it..spike died after being rejected & then turned into moster & did horrible things, he had no control over because he had no soul..then he changed & got his soul back & didn't think he deserved to be be loved & he died thinking the person that made him want to be better, that made him change, the person he loved most, did not love him💔 I THINK HE REALLY THOUGHT "SHE WILL ALWAYS HATE ME" anyway I tried to create a coloring that fit the song & tried to create text...I changed everything so often & rerendered..I really hope you'll enjoy.... #fanvidfeed #spuffy #BTVS #ANNESOSHIFEATURES #VIDDINGISART song: always hate me by james blunt couple: spike & buffy | spuffy show: buffy the vampire slayer program: Davinci Resolve 17 coloring made by me [+LUT by Andy Moradi] I DON'T OWN ANYTHING EXCEPT THE EDITING!!! EVERYTHING BELONGS TO THEIR RIGHTFUL OWNERS!!!