Муж не помогает с ребенком! Чувствую себя рабсилой! Что делать?

You have very good videos. Could you help me understand my situation. I have the following situation, I am on maternity leave. My relationship with my husband is so-so, I stopped feeling like a woman, everything is on me: cleaning, cooking, the child, I always wait for the weekend so that my husband can take care of the child, but nothing changes, after lunch he goes and does his own things, either with the car, or goes and helps his parents. The child hardly plays with him. Probably because he doesn’t devote enough time to him. When he comes home from work, he lies down on the couch, the thing is that he is sick and is on home dialysis. When he got sick, I took everything on myself, even more, before he got sick, he helped, but not as much as I would like. He went to sleep on the couch, telling them that he had to get up early and do the procedure, there has been no intimacy for a long time. Because of everything, I start to break down on the child and scold him. I started drinking valerian, but it doesn’t matter what kind of relationship we had, this is what it is. I remember before, my husband and I always went out somewhere, walked and to the cinema. He justifies this by saying that we don’t have enough money and have nothing to go to. Or he doesn’t want to go to the center for a walk, it’s already getting warm, I don’t want to constantly walk on the playground with my child, I want to go out together. I don’t know how to sort out this situation. I feel like a slave to some kind of force. When he argues with my husband, he can call me names, and accordingly, I tell him in response, we can go for several days without talking. Actually, I am grateful for a lot in my life, otherwise I would not have learned to drive a car, change tires, go anywhere alone, be more balanced and, in fact, I could have remained absolutely infantile under my husband’s wing. Now I can do a lot myself! This is freedom right now! My relationship with my parents is even, but rather only external. I only fulfill certain duties and protect my boundaries, making it clear that I am no longer their little daughter, but their daughter is already an adult woman. They still rebel a little, but they accept me. I really love driving it. I want to drive around Europe!!!