you only have so long to start

Entry 16: Hey, how's it going? Hope you liked the video. I'll make another one tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day asd jte neka dai! I usually listen to the last video that I post once it goes live on the channel, so I see how it looks and sounds on YouTube. I don't think I'm the greatest speaker, but I do enjoy hearing myself talk--it's soothing to me. Not sure if that feeling comes from a sense of accomplishment or maybe I simply like my voice: I don't know. It calmed me down today. After hearing myself, I felt hopeful about everything: my YouTube channels, my art, me... Have you ever wondered if you're going down the same road you've gone down before, but you're not wise enough to realize it yet. I often get so scared of wasting time that I'm constantly worrying myself over if I'll ever be content with the things that I'm doing. Did I get enough done today? Will I ever get to where I want to be? Will I feel any different if I achieve my goals? Do I have to fix something else in me that success won't fill? I think I need to stop asking myself so many questions; I shouldn't bother myself with things I can't control so easily; I should be more thankful... I am thankful. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Hiding hurts. Anyways, see you tomorrow ❤️ Animation Channel: ‪@DerekFromTMeck‬ ​