Under The Water

I wrote this song just a couple of months ago after spending a day drawing near to God in search of a heart that is pure and whole, just how He originally designed for us. This song cuts to the core of my inner struggle with trying to understand God's love and feeling the inability to bring myself to jump into what feels like water too rough for me to swim in. I don't want to live in fear, because that isn't really living at all. I know that a lot of times God will not force us into the places He has called us, and that we should keep walking in faith, knowing that He will take care of us. However I find myself in this place asking God to drag me in if that's what it will take for me to be who I am made to be. Nevertheless if it is a battle I must fight, I pray and trust that God will give me the courage to finally throw myself into those treacherous waters. I have spent many years on this dry deserted land. I once found my safety there, but now that I know about this infinite ocean of God's love, I know that I can't truly live without it and I am sure that I would rather die in that ocean than live another day on this land.