Update: I have given up and that is Scary

Hey all. It has been many years since i recorded a video saying that i had given up on my life and that i did not care if i were to die. I have been up and down with my feelings on the topic but those feelings have never really gone away. I have had many people ask how i am doing since that video, so i decided that i would try to make an update to that video. I am doing better, not good but better. I have new scars that i have given myself, some deep. When i look at the world i see ways that the world could kill me and what would be the most painless way to go. I tell people that i am suicidal as well as being depressed. Even though i am trying to find my light to follow and make something of my life, it is hard to see past the black fog that is depression. Please if you are having trouble reach out to someone, even me, i will do my best to try to help if i can but i am probably not the best person to reach out to. If you are feeling suicidal please talk to someone, even if it just a random stranger on the internet. Often times the only people who know how to help are those that have gone through or going through the same thing, so please keep going, talk to someone and look forward. "No one would miss me and nobody cares about me." This is a quote from me and even though i know it is not true it's hard to believe it sometimes. So please reach out and have the strength to hold on. My Merch: https://shop.spreadshirt.com/poorman973 My Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/user?u=5950593 Fa!lB0x Gaming Patreon:   / failb0x   For my Discord:   / discord   Check out my other channel Fa!lBox Gaming:    / @falb0xgaming492   #depression #suicide