what the world looks like without sexual attraction, in 3 minutes

what does life feel like without sexual attraction? it's like asking a fish what water feels like. it's not something i experience. it's something i experience everything through. i see someone beautiful and i think oh my god they're so beautiful. the same way i see a sunset or a painting or good architecture. i appreciate it. i might stare for a few seconds. but there's no pull. no next step. the appreciation just exists on its own and that's enough. when my friends talk about someone being hot i understand the words but not the feeling. it's like someone describing a color you've never seen. you can process the description but you won't have the experience. for most of my childhood hotness just meant that person has a lot of muscles. that's genuinely it. ads built on sexuality do nothing for me. perfume commercials with naked people. cars sold through attraction. i don't feel the thing they're trying to make me feel. i just see the manipulation. which also makes me wonder about all the other ads built on desires i do have that i'm not noticing. sex scenes in movies feel like filler to me. i zone out. i look away. a lot of people think that's the climax of a romantic story. i can't see it that way. but my world is not flat. i feel so many intense things. just not that specific thing. the intensity shows up in conversations. in being understood. in someone's mind clicking with mine. in the moment someone says exactly what i was thinking and i realize the thought was never only in my head. everything is there. just one filter is missing. some things are duller without it. some things are sharper. and i wouldn't trade the sharp things for anything. ✨ Subscribe: https://riadumitrescu.substack.com/ 🔗 Instagram:   / ria.dms   💌 Contact: [email protected] 🎥 Watch more: Becoming intellectual 🕯️:    • becoming intellectual ✦   Side questing every day:    • side-questing every day   if you're searching for: what is it like to be asexual, asexual experience, life without sexual attraction, asexuality explained, what asexual people feel, asexual perspective, how asexual people see the world, asexuality and attraction, what does asexual mean, asexual feelings, asexual and emotional connection, compulsory sexuality, asexual community, ace spectrum, lgbtq asexual this is for you. #asexuality #asexualexperience #lifewithoutattraction #whatisasexuality #asexualperspective #acecommunity #lgbtq #acespec #asexualfeelings #compulsorysexuality #asexualworld #emotionalconnection #asexuallife #aceandproud #asexualityawareness