Pastel Revenant-Abandon Me (audio)

lyrics all my friends turned fake, then turned to nothing at all like I blinked one time and watched the whole circle fall no goodbye, no closure, just silence and dust now I don’t even know who the fuck I can trust they was “that’s my brother” then they ghosted my line now I talk to the dark like it’s answering fine I swear I hear them laugh when I’m alone in my room but it sounds like my voice coming out of the gloom my phone just sits there like it’s dead on arrival I check it like it owes me survival but it don’t owe me shit, it just lights up and lies like “you got no messages” over and over inside and I start arguing with nothing again like “y’all switched up first, don’t pretend you my friends” then something in my head goes “they never existed” and I say “shut the fuck up” but I still get twisted I don’t know what’s real when it’s quiet like this feels like my thoughts got a knife in my wrist and I’m talking to something that talks back mean like it knows everything I’ve ever seen they abandon me so I made friends with the demons inside of me they say “fuck them bitches, they was never real” and I’m like “damn… that’s exactly how I feel” they abandon me now the voices feel like company they don’t leave, they don’t switch, they don’t lie to my face they just stay in my head and embrace now it’s me and the noise, and it don’t shut up it’s like twelve different thoughts all saying “what’s up” one says “you’re insane,” one says “you’re fine” one says “kill the past,” one says “it’s time” and I’m yelling like “shut the fuck up, all of you” but they answer like “nah, we the only truth” I start laughing in rage, start pacing the floor like my brain turned into a broken war my old friends feel fake like they never had names like I made them up just to play the game and that thought hits hard but it don’t even hurt cause the demons in my head already did worse they like “we been here since the start of your mess” “we watched every fake love, every fake-ass text” and I’m like “cool, so y’all really all I got left?” and they go “yeah… you finally accept” they abandon me so I made friends with the demons inside of me they say “fuck everybody, let the world burn slow” and I’m like “I already know” they abandon me so I don’t feel alone when I sleep now the chaos in my head talks like it’s home and I don’t even feel alone GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD, GET OUT, GET OUT, GET OUT I CAN’T TELL IF IT’S ME OR THIS SHIT IN MY MOUTH THEY NEVER CAME BACK, THEY NEVER CAME BACK, FUCK THAT I’M COUNTING EVERY FACE THAT GOT LOST IN THE BLACK SHUT THE FUCK UP, I DIDN’T ASK YOU TO TALK BUT YOU’RE STILL IN MY SKULL LIKE YOU OWN EVERY THOUGHT YOU SAY “THEY LEFT YOU” LIKE IT’S SOME NEW ASS SHOCK BUT YOU BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME, TOO CLOSE TO UNBLOCK I’M SCRAPING MY BRAIN JUST TO MAKE THIS SHIT STOP BUT YOU LAUGH WHEN I BREAK LIKE IT’S ALL THAT YOU GOT EVERY FRIEND THAT I HAD TURNED TO STATIC AND ROT NOW IT’S JUST ME AND THIS FUCKING THOUGHT