as if - glaive (slowed)

lyrics~~ Why do I have to listen to you when you have zero to say? Because I'm young? All my life I've been young So I never get a turn Hyperaggressive if I'm honest, I can't stand to be alone My friends are so progressive, they called me "faggot" a year ago And I couldn't cut them off because then I'd be on my own Being obsessive sounds depressing but it's just the way it goes Just the way it goes And will that ever fucking change? As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) never gonna change My friends on fentanyl, I hope they're finding their peace On life support for a week, I heard they died in their sleep There's so much truth in the fiction, don't know what to believe There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need Something more (somethin' more, somethin') I'm just dying to be something more, something more And will that ever fucking change? As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever get it right (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever find the words (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever be enough (As if I'm, as if I'm) I wonder if I'll ever fuckin' change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change (I'll stay the same) As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change As if I'm, as if I'm ever gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) gonna change (As if I'm, as if I'm) never gonna change Everybody talks to me like I'm the one, you know, I should change Why should I change? I've never even gotten to find out who I am And you want me to change, that's crazy You tell me I'm bad before I even get to be anything What the hell is that? Original sin or something? It's you that wants the a before you even start But when I say I want the same thing, I'm nuts, right? I'm not gonna cry I'm gonna find my place in this world, count on it