PART 2 Passed Over Promotion For Someone I Recruited & Trained, Managers Shocked I Checked Out. AITA

PART ONE:    • UPDATE Passed Over For Promotion For Someo...   UPDATES: My situation at work has got worse. I'm still useless at everything - and everyone can see it now. So I've started treating myself like I deserve. The other day, I burnt myself on the oven and as much as it hurt, I thought I deserved the pain. Yesterday, I was cooking my lunch and I pressed my arm on the oven. Then when I was cooking dinner later for me and my fiancée, I did the same. So I've now got 2 decent burns on my arm. I have no inclination to stop. I'll stop doing it when I'm not useless. Which will be never. FINAL UPDATE: I wasn't expecting to update so soon but today was quite unexpected. I got into work and my manager/deputy asked to see me in the office. I went in and they had this print out on the desk and asked me to read it - it was my posts including the one about the self harm which has been shared elsewhere and they asked me if I could confirm if it's me. I was so shocked I didn't know what to say which definitely isn't like me so I just didn't say anything. So the deputy asked if they could see my arms and I just didn't have any motivation to refuse so I shown them. They were really shocked, and my manager was just like "bloody hell mate. Looking at my Burns" I asked how they knew and they said my promoted colleague saw it on social media so she told them as she was really concerned. He said if he didn't see the posts he'd be having a very different conversation with me but he said they can't ignore it anymore and they just want to help me now - he said they'll write last week off, start again but I need to help myself now and seek help. He said he's arranged for me to have a meeting with our employee assistance program this week and it's non-negotiable now. I said it doesn't matter though, my career is fucked isn't it and I'll never progress and get said I really shouldn't be worrying that for now. But he stressed he's still very serious about the technical role and has spoken to his boss about it and if I can demonstrate I'm serious about it, do the course it definitely could happen - it's not just a fob off. But I need to definitely concentrate on my mental health for now as it's far more important than money. My deputy tried to talk to me and just said "this reminded me of my dad when I read it, it's really upset me" and couldn't talk anymore and looked like she was going to cry a bit so let the manager carry on. He said to me he's not just my boss, he's my friend and really doesn't want to see me struggle so he really wants to help. We've agreed I can take the week off, I'll use some annual leave so I can clear my head. Hell tell the team whatever I want - I said I don't mind them knowing the truth that I'm not doing so well as its pointless to lie. We shook hands and that was it. Later on, his boss took me to one side as he's in the office today and he basically asked he how I am and I said not so good. He said he knows I can do it, and he shown me his wrists. He's got scars and he said he was in a bad way years ago so knows how it is and I can talk to him anytime. I messaged my promoted colleague and said thank you, I really appreciate it. She just sent me a ☺️ back. This is likely to be my last post about this, at least for a while. My boss said he thinks I should try and stay offline for a bit and I do agree. Thanks again all for just taking the time again, really do appreciate it. BACKGROUND MUSIC From Youtube Audio Library: Book Bag - E's Jammy Jams    • Book Bag   Story 1: (Latest Update) AITAH for telling my friend/colleague I'm looking for another job after she was promoted instead of me? Story 2: AITA telling my family my sister couldn't work with me because of them? Story 3: AITA for refusing to become my dad’s legal guardian even though my family wants me to? #aita #parenting #family #storytime #relationship #relationships #reddit #redditstories If you want your story removed, please contact: [email protected]