hexblush - i’m here but not alive

this is what ‘i’m fine’ really sounds like. L Y R I C S: i don’t even know what day it is same ceiling, same thoughts, same mess i live in phone glowing like it’s saving my life but it’s just killing time while i’m losing mine i laugh in texts but i’m quiet in real life say i’m good like a hundred times but it don’t feel right nah, it don’t feel right i think i’m here but i don’t feel present days go by like i never meant them every night i say i’ll change every morning feels the same and i’m so tired of pretending i’m okay but i don’t even know what i would say if someone really asked me are you happy? cause i don’t know i just go through the motions like a ghost every feeling comes and goes like i’m made of broken code try to fix me, overload now i’m stuck in this mode i swear i had dreams before now i just scroll and ignore everything i used to want don’t feel like mine anymore and it’s weird cause nobody sees it i disappear but i’m still breathing smile in photos, fake the meaning inside my head it’s barely beating i think i lost myself somewhere between who i am and who i should be now every version feels unfair and none of them feel like me and i don’t know how to stop it this slow fall, this quiet drop no big crash, no one notices i just fade and never talk about it i’m still here but i’m not alive just surviving on borrowed time and if i vanished for a while would anyone even ask why? or would it just feel the same like i was never really in the frame #relatable #moody #newmusic note: These sounds weren’t made on Earth. You found this place for a reason. © 2026 hexblush. All rights reserved.