Lauren Marcus || BIG HAT || Tiny Desk Submission 2021

BIG HAT - NPR TINY DESK CONTEST SUBMISSION 2021 Words & Music by Lauren Marcus Feat: Morgan Siobhan Green - Backup Vocals Nick Frenay - Trumpet Charlie Rosen - Guitar Marques Walls - Drums Filmed by Jennifer Ashley Tepper BIG HAT I'm so tired and I'm hanging on tight tight tight I'm just trying to get it right How do I put my heart on the line more than I already do? I string it up constantly next to my laundry  and hope that the beat breaks through The world passes by it and sometimes will cry  as my heart shrivels under the sun They want it out longer but their hearts are stronger  and I think that mine's almost done They like that I show it but won't help me grow it and I think that my heart's almost done   I could put on a big hat I could order up purple smoke I think they'd probably like that Yeah I could swallow my vowels until I choke Ain't it all just a show anyway? I'm a fake babe so pile on and why dontcha tell me what's missing? I should put on a big hat And maybe then they'd listen How do I keep pushing forward when everything forward is faker than me? All of the footprints are making me cynical That's never who I thought I'd be If you're vaguely smart you can turn any art into anything happening now wow wow wow Wow guess I'm a dummy 'cause I'm telling you, honey I've tried and I don't know how I'd run with the herds but I use too much words Ooh, I've tried to stop but I don't know how I could put on a big hat I could order up purple smoke I think they'd probably like that Yeah I could swallow my vowels until I choke Ain't it all just a show anyway? I'm a fake babe so pile on and why dontcha tell me what's missing? I should put on a big hat And maybe then they'd listen Always willing to walk to walk the wire Always waiting to fall and to fall and to fall and to fall It meant everything to me baby But it never meant nothing to you at all Always willing to walk to walk the wire Always waiting to fall and to fall and to fall and to fall It meant everything to me baby But it never meant nothing to you at all Always willing to walk to walk the wire Always waiting to fall and to fall and to fall and to fall It meant everything to me baby But it never meant nothing to you at all I'm so tired and I'm hanging on tight tight tight I'm just trying to get it right  So find me a big hat Go and order up purple smoke I think they'd probably like that Yeah I could swallow my vowels until I choke Ain't it all just a show anyway? I'm a fake babe so pile on and why dontcha tell me what's missing? I should put on a big hat My god I think that I'm losing my fight