Fault Lines

I wake up loving the world today By midnight I watch it fade away Every word feels sharp enough to break Every silence feels too much to take I build people into something divine Then watch them fall from the heights in my mind A heart that runs at a dangerous speed Always afraid of what I might need I'm standing on fault lines, shaking below Never quite certain which way I'll go I'm caught between holding on and letting go Between "please don't leave" and "I need to be alone" Every emotion burns brighter than the sun And by the time it's over, another storm has come I'm trying to find myself inside the noise Between shattered reflections and impossible choices Searching for a place where I can finally be Someone who feels whole when they're looking at me A message unanswered becomes a goodbye A passing expression becomes a reason why My thoughts can turn a whisper into a scream Reality blurring around the seams I hate how I care this much at all How every connection feels like a rise and a fall Like standing on the edge of a crumbling shore Begging the tide not to take anymore The waves keep changing, pulling me through I don't always know what's false or true I'm caught between holding on and letting go Between "please don't leave" and "I need to be alone" Every emotion burns brighter than the sun And by the time it's over, another storm has come I'm trying to find myself inside the noise Between shattered reflections and impossible choices Searching for a place where I can finally be Someone who feels whole when they're looking at me Who am I when nobody's around? When the echoes fade and the room goes quiet? I've worn so many faces through the years Sometimes I don't know which one is mine yet But every scar beneath the skin Tells a story of where I've been A thousand battles no one saw A thousand times I've carried on I'm caught between holding on and letting go Learning that both can be part of growth Every emotion still burns like a firestorm But maybe I can weather what I've weathered before I'm gathering pieces from the wreckage left behind Finding fragments of myself I thought I'd never find And though the fault lines still run deep in me They don't define everything I'll ever be The ground still shakes beneath my feet But I'm learning how to stand One breath, one day, one moment at a time With a heart that's trying to understand.